For so many years I dreaded the new year. Just another chance for me to set goals and not attain them. Always feeling like I failed when I would look back over the year.
A question we all need to ask ourselves upon the eve of a new year......What kind of person am I?
Do I love myself? Do I have great friends that I deposit more into their lives than I deduct? Do I talk negatively about others? Did I do a good job this year about making others feel loved and was I present to them?
Do I have a positive aura or am I always in a bad mood? Do I yell a lot at my children? Did I take the time to communicate properly with my spouse or children about important topics?
Have I given at least my best at my job? Did I follow through with my actions when I gave my word that I would? Do I question things when I feel in my gut that they aren't right? Did I stick up for those that can't stick up for themselves?
Have I given my time or money for those less fortunate? Have I taken time to perfect my GIFT or to spend time trying to figure out what that gift is?
Three years ago I vowed that my New Years' resolution would be 'Give More, Want less'.
I FAIL DAILY.
I'm cranky when I can't get it all done. I get frustrated when people don't see the true reason that we are all here or they don't see my vision.
I'm not always as grateful as I should be. I yell at my children and get frustrated easily w my family. I get down on myself and have sad days where I want to crawl in a hole.
I often feel as if I'm NOT DOING ENOUGH FOR OTHERS.
I'm perfectly made. I get up every day with the same goal. The daily activities add up over time to pave a path I'm so proud to call my own. I AM THE ONLY ME. No ONE else can be ME.
As I look back over my years in the rear view mirror, my volunteer work and my work on myself is by far leaps and bounds over everything else. It's never 'wow I made 18% more than last year. It's the memories with my children, the time with my family that was the most important.
I'm not perfect. But I am perfectly made.
Embrace your journey. Do not put an expiration date on your success. When you fall down, get back up. (If you can learn this last piece; you will be successful-I PROMISE).
Here's to another amazing year full of daily follow-through(hard work), grace (thankfulness) and getting back up when you fail(perseverance).